The Thought Process

I consider myself to be a supremely lazy person even if I am a little better off than many of my friends around me. It has a kind of effect when you tend to think - "Oh! Common I am much better off than him/her". But in reality both of you are well down in the dungeons.

If I find a particular activity very pleasurable then I am very enthusiastic about it but gradually the enthusiasm wears down and I am drawn away from it.

One of the biggest regrets in recent past of my life is absence of any sporting activity from my life. And my thought process is such that I blame all my unfitness on this particular reason. I am too stingy and undisciplined to go to a gym daily and work out and that too all alone with no one else except to keep motivating myself and providing the self tempo required for the same. But sports! Bring them on! I love them! From my childhood days till my third year in the college, almost everyday I have played one sport or the other. And then suddenly cometh fourth year, I got busy with all the worthless (with respect to my health) hall administration positions etc which just killed the sport inside me (pun intended).

When I look at a three-four year old photograph of mine, I cannot help but feel indignant and covet. I so long to be like that person I was (mostly in terms of health only though!).

The thing is, as they say, this obesity thing is all genetic and depends upon the whole clan of your father and mother. So unfortunately if most of your close relatives are on the heavier side thats a worrying sign for you. You need to keep your metabolism level high and have to be proactive in order to keep yourself healthy. Now till my third year, I used to play all kind of sports, used to have good food, have lots of walking and roaming around the campus and felt really healthy. But now, it is all inverted. No sports, no good food, no walking, just sitting and working the whole day and eating junk food; these all things make me feel bad about myself. The biggest thing I would like to change in my life would be this! Hope I am able to turnaround the things!

The only thing that should be constant in life is CHANGE!